After completing a longitudinal study of co-principal shared leadership initiatives in Aotearoa/New Zealand, the author discusses some of the issues raised by her research design and methods. First, she explains the storying techniques she used to construct case narratives of each initiative. While these accounts drew largely on the participants' own words, she shows how her own narrative analysis shaped them. She then explains a 'pragmatic' discourse analysis that combines elements of Foucauldian and feminist critical and poststucturalist theory (Fraser, 1997). In using this for a secondary analysis of the case narratives, the aim was to illuminate some of the discursive influences that were shaping, and being shaped by, the individual co-principals and their evolving shared leadership practices. The author encountered a range of dilemmas, however, as she tried to cross boundaries between these 'realist' and poststructuralist research approaches. She reflects here on the implications of what Lather (1997) has called 'the ruins of a feminist ethnography' and associated issues that have been raised around authorial distance and representation and participant voice and confidentiality.